The Pack

Sunday, 29 June 2014


We keep running for love
All the while not knowing
That it is just around the corner
Or waiting for you at a random party
Where you don't seem to know a soul.

Friday, 27 June 2014

Claustrophobic In This Little Big World

Have you ever felt claustrophobic? Do you ever feel the weight of this fucking world on your shoulders? Trapped in a clear glass dome which has set the limits of the blue sky way beyond your reach? It is not the truth but people try and make you believe? Tied down by expectations, rules & regulations? And if you live in a country called India, then the typical 'Log kya kahengay?'( What will the society say). Every time someone says this to me, my mind goes 'Fuck the people. Why should they care about what I do, wear, eat. Or who I hang out with?'

You have everything inside of you to break free and to fly above and over the horizon but you find yourself unable to do so because of so many stupid reasons ( and YOU are one of them).
Consider this post as a dumb diary entry by a girl who is really pissed. Actually way beyond pissed. She is angry. Angry with herself and everything around her.
So, with the fire and power vested in my soul, I'd like to tell 'some people' about 'some things'.

  • If you really think that I'm going to give a fuck then think again. I don't give a fuck about your stupid ideas. I'd rather be with someone who is mature and intelligent and who understands.
  • I am not a thing that you posses or own. If you care about me then let me be me and stop being an insecure dog.
  • My ideas about life are pretty simple. Don't fucking mix them with your misconceptions and try to mess that up. Because what I am is unique and not your muse.
  • I am an independent individual. Treat me like one. And if you can't, then please fuck off. I don't want that dead weight.
  • Don't ever stop me from doing anything. You'll ruin my mood. But I'll do the thing anyway to tell you that you ain't got control.
  • If you got a problem with me, then please get lost. I am not interested in entertaining you and absolutely not inclined towards exchanging fake smiles and gestures. Kindly fuck off.
  • I neither have the time nor energy to waste on stupid people. If I talk to you, text you, share my food with you, tell you silly stories or laugh at your pjs that means you are special.
  • My good friends, we're still friends.
  • To all my special peeps, I really really love you. Thank you for all the little things that you have ever done for me. I am deeply grateful and indebted for life.
  • To all the people I've stopped talking to, I know things could've been different but you were being a little bitch.
  • To all my old and new friends, many more years of friendship awaits us.
At times I get really sentimental. This is one of them. It is one of those times when I actually start caring about people. Dayyum I'm so angry right now. Okay! Pfft!
Please let me live my life. I want to learn without any boundaries, rules or regulations. I want to see and feel for myself. I don't want to be bound by the restrictions that the humanity has imposed upon itself. I want to be impulsive. I want to run. I want to fall and get up again just so that I can fall again. I want to fall in love. See and feel what it is like to be in love. I want to travel around the world. I just don't want to be bound by any kind of restriction. I want to fly. And fly I will.

Yours freely, (chuckles at this stupid way to sign off)

P.S: I don't mean to offend anyone. But if you really want to take offence, then go ahead and off you go.

Wednesday, 18 June 2014

It Is Time We Give It Back To Them

It is the month of December. It is very cold outside. Everyone is wrapped in their rainbow hued cocoons of sweaters and pullovers. You feel someone's eyes on you. It is a motorist coming from the direction of your back. He tries to touch you but misses, looks back, gives you a smirk as if taunting you and then rides away into Hades(at least you hope he does).

It is January

Tuesday, 17 June 2014

11 Things Law School Taught Me

College life is tough. And it is way beyond crazy if you are in a law school. I am in a law school and my life is crazy. Believe it or not, only one year of college has taught me more than 14 years of school.
So here is a list of things to help you peeps.

To be honest, I was really disheartened after the CLAT 2013 results came out. People who had a very bad rank got a better college than me because of 'Reservation' *sings in a glorious voice*. It was not fair. I deserved better. But who ever said life was fair. There will be many times like this one. I've learnt not to get disheartened and keep on working towards what I love.

Never ever take something or someone on face value. You, my dear friend are going to be fooled. Your life won't solve the puzzles for you. You have to rescue yourself. Therefore check, recheck and repeat this process three more times to ensure your safety.

Alexander Pope has remarked that "Histories are more full of examples of the fidelity of dogs than of friends." In this age where everyone is running to get ahead, people do and will keep on betraying others. A bad company will definitely destroy you, your dreams, your confidence and self-respect. And we sure as hell don't want that.
Talk to everyone nicely but choose wisely the person you wish to share your secrets with.

This shizz is important. Why? My ex-roommate was, well crueler than Cruella De'vil. She mentally tortured me. And had I not kept calm (I don't know how I did that), I would've smacked her. Smacked her so hard that her next generations would've been born with the mark (and Barney Stinson and Marshall Erricsson jokes would've followed). And I would have ended outside the college. So unless you want to have a hard time, keep you stuff together.

5. SISTERS BEFORE MISTERS(applies to girls reading this)
Now this one I really like.
Sisters before misters,
Hoes before bros.
I'm so sorry
But that's the way it goes.
You stay with them 24/7. Literally.They will stay by my side come what may. In all Projects, presentations, submissions, hangovers and boring classes. I know they will love me in all my drunken brokenness and will happily glue the pieces together with all the love that they have.
They'll be with you when you are making fun of someone or when you are going through a rough patch.
Someone told me that a man can tell you that everything will be okay. But not the way a woman can.

I'm sorry Saradda! :*
If you want to study in Oxford/Cambridge/NYU after your graduation, you better pick up those modules and books.
Contracts in the morning with Dhaggu

The contracts storm!

And no Laila-Majnu as well.
I don't want to be stuck with a person for the remaining four years of the course. No. Na-uh. Nopes.

Yess! Also because:
I haven't slept for more than 5 hours a day(except during exam time) for a year now. Why? Because I'm in a law school. I'd rather sleep for the meager hours I am free rather than say 'Aur Batao. What else?' endlessly for 4 hours, till the sun rises. Like seriously WTF?
Yes. I love whatever's left of it.

This is what you need to groom yourself and become better day by day. It requires dedication to build a pleasing and charming personality. And these things help you grow and groom yourself.
I'm still working on Yashasvi Raghuvanshi.

Working is hard. Do I need to say anything else?

Aim for one thing that you love and do it perfectly and to the best of your ability rather than juggling a million things and then finally get no result out of them.
My father told me this quite often. I only understood it after I started college.

एकै साधै सब सधै। सब साधे सब जाए।
"Set your mind to one goal and you will achieve it. Set your mind to a lot of things and you will accomplish nothing."

After being tortured by ex-roomie, bitching, stupid arguements and misunderstandings and 'Bitch War' (A new and special term invented by a brainless retard), scared by exams and question papers, marred by grades and being endlessly tortured by teachers, I have survived 365 days of a crazy law school life.
I promise myself that I will be strong and I will always stand for the true values and for my passions.

Love always,

P.S.: Ahem! ahem!I will soon be adding a 12th and 13th point which someone just pointed out. Boy I'm not a hypocrite! :P

Friday, 13 June 2014

Liminal Being

A being confused of it's own origin.

When she looked above, she often found herself lost among galaxies. People had told her stories about creatures that lived in the stars above. Like the great Chiron. And the Sphinx. The creatures were fascinating and downright crazy at the same time, she thought. When anyone asked her why, the only thing she could choke out was how a being could be confused of its own origin and how could they not know where they belonged? Liminal beings fascinated her to no extent.

Monday, 2 June 2014


It had indeed been a very long time since my body had been wholly immersed in water. Immersed so deep that coming back to the surface took hours. I could hear the other man-cubs jumping in the water, at a distance, from the cliffs that hung dearly on either sides of water. I could hear the wails of the poor souls, again man-cubs, who were being forced off the ledge, and were followed by a huge splash and gurgling sound. All this was happening at quite a distance, but I could hear it all very well. Water augmented my senses somehow.